Painful Memories
I can feel the world coming apart,
and I need you by my side with your delicate heart.
So please don't leave,
I thought you'd come and go,
I never thought you would stay.
And I'm sorry if I tried to push you away.
I know there'll be risks but I want to face them with you. It's wrong that we should be only half alive... half of ourselves. I love you. So here I am - standing in your doorway. I have always been standing in your doorway. Isn't it about time somebody saved your life?
I'm thinking of quitting drinking again
I know, I've said that a couple times
And I'm always changing my mind, well, I guess I am
But theres this burn in my stomach and theres this pain in my side
And when I kneel at the toilet
And the mornings clean light pours in through the window
Sometimes I pray I don't die
I'm a goddamn hypocrite
This is my heart bleeding before you,
This is me down on my knees
these foolish games are tearing me apart
Your thoughtless words are breaking my heart
Youre breaking my heart
When you look in her eyes, and she's looking back in yours, everything feels not quite normal, because you feel stronger, and weaker at the same time. You feel excited, and at the same time, terrified. The truth is you don't know what you feel, except you know what kind of man you want to be. It's as if you've reached the unreachable, and you weren't ready for it.
You will never forget your First Love that`s what makes it so special . you love so hard , so deep , so intensely because you don`t know any different . it`s the best until its over . then you hurt like you`ve never been hurt before . eventually you love again but you'll love differently , you will love more carefully , more cautiously ;; continuously comparing everyone To Your First Love
and i drink. drink to forget, forget the kisses, the sweet little notes, the feeling of being in your arms, of you, loving me. i drink to forget what we had.
i act like shit don't phase me
inside, it drives me crazy.
my insecurities could eat me alive.
Tear stained cheeks are just my style
i've had the time of my life
no i never felt this way before
yes i swear it's the truth
& i owe it all to you
You've been a part of my life for so very long
It's hard for me to believe sometimes
That you're really gone
I tuck your memory away in that special hiding place
Hoping no one could tell by the look on my face
That you're still in my heart, always on my mind
Part of me every day ...
You're the closest thing I have to bring up in a conversation about a love that didn't last. It's not that our love died, it just never really bloomed. Well, I can't let go. I can't let go of you. You're holding me back without even trying to. I can't let go. I can't move on from the past. Without lifting a finger you're holding me back. And then I saw our paths diverge, and I guess I felt O.K. about it until you got with another girl. I couldn't understand why it bothered me so. And it might not make much sense to you or any of my friends, though, somehow, still you affect the things I do. I don't understand why I feel sad every time I see you out with someone new.
I can't let go of you.
your stomach's filled up but you're starved for conversation.
you're spending all your night growin' old in your bed
& you're starin' at your photos cause you wanna forget, it's over.
you made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take.
you know i'd go to fucking Hell for you
there i go, believing you again
You are everything I never knew I always wanted.
You always put me second.
But, I always put you first.
I guess I'm just not worth it.
I guess it's just not fair.
But then again, what is?
You were the first to make me feel like this.
You know how I feel about you.
I just don't know what to do.
Don't say you forgot what I need,
Cause' all I need is you.
Words are only words.
can you show me something else?
what if i was good to you? what if
you were good to me? what if i
could hold you til i feel you
move inside of me? what if it
was paradise? what if we were
symphonies?
when you look at me,
it's like you're secretly
trying to tell me
not to give up hope.
but i just want you to know something:
i almost already have.
When i feel numb i'll let you know,
I won't become what i was before
what i used to be
will pass away.
and then you'll see
all i want now is happiness
for you and me.
we could leave this town & Run Forever
to some degree i still regret my memory for keeping you around. i thought that you were mine but my broken hearts been shattered one to many times. and i don`t want to see you anymore , i`m just not that strong . i love it when you're here but i`m better when you're gone . i`m certain that ive given and oh how you can take theres no use in you looking there`s nothing left for you to break . baby please release me , let my heart rest in pieces
This is the worst mistake I've made, and I make thousands every day. If you give this one more shot I'll make it up in every way. I'll call you twice a day and drive you to the airport just so I can watch you leave. Even if you're leaving me.
Theres a crystal lake of all the tears I've cried
The thing that hurts the most is i cant even hate you.
Trust me, i tried. With everything i have, i tried.
But still, at the end of the day it's all only words
During the night I lay in bed
Thinking about the way we kissed
And how much i love your smile
ending with the way you ruined it all.
The only decision left is the one that
I need to make with myself-- to stop running... once and for all.
- Dawsons Creek
the hurt began to fade,
and it was easier to just let go,
at least i thought it was,
but in every girl i met since,
i found myself looking for you,
and when the feelings got too strong,
i'd write you another letter,
but i never sent them,
in fear of what i might find,
by then, you'd gone on with your life,
and i didnt want to think about
you loving someone else,
i wanted to remember us
like we were those months,
i didnt ever want to forget that
stay awake for one more night
i'll pretend that i'm okay.
every one says i'll be alright
but i'm dreaming of things
better then you know.
would it hurt for me to make it?
would it hurt for me to let this go?
Spend all your time waiting
For that second chance
For a break that would make it okay
There’s always one reason
To feel not good enough
he fools all his friends into thinkin hes so strong
but he still sleeps with the light on
and he acts like its alright
and he smiles again
and his friends dont understand him
hes a question without answers
who feels like fallin apart
he knows hes so much more than worthless
he needs to find a purpose
he wonders what he does to deserve this
he can't hide no matter how hard he tries
His secret disguised behind the lies
And at night he crys away his pride
With eyes shut tight staring at him inside
All his friends know why he can't sleep at night
All his family askin' if he's alright
All he wants to do is get rid of this hell
Well all he's got to do is stop kiddin' hhiself
he can only fool hisself for so long
Sadness everyday for me. You cant take that away from me. All these fuckin thoughts inside my head, are almost more than I can take. You push and pull on me, your gonna keep pushin till I break
Now it's just me and my hard-driven guilt,
Behind the wall of emptiness I allowed to be built.
lately i can't be happy for no one
i need some time to myself
i try to smile but i can't remember how
i know tomorrow there'll be nothing left
LAST TiME YOU THAT YOU YELLED AT ME
i SWORE i HEARD YOU SAY --
-- i WiSH i HADN'T MET YOU AT ALL
Just so you know, you'll never know.
I've been running around for the last year trying to find some clarity and all of a sudden I am so clear, and it's ridiculous, I want to be with you
i'm sorry for the things i've said
it's been a really long week
and i know that doesn't justify
but for a while things were looking bleak
and i don't have much to look forward to
i've got long drives and slow rain and photographs
and all these things i keep inside myself
i'm right back where i've really always been
i got over you just long enough
to let my heartache mend.
then today i started loving you again
i write mostly on paper now
knowing my thoughts will never leave this room
i'd be out of line telling you to leave him
so i lie here alone
lately i can't be happy for no one
they think i need some time to myself
i try to smile but i can't remember how
i know tomorrow there'll be nothing else
and i wanted to be giving you everything
you turn out to be more than i bargained for
forgive me that i love you
we both realized it way too late.
I was puttin my heart and soul on the line
Said you needed some time, just a little more time to make up your mind
Well its been long enough
Time is up
I talk to absolutely no one.
Couldn't keep to myself enough.
And the things bottled inside have finally begun
To create so much pressure that I'll soon blow up.
I heard the reverberating footsteps
Synching up to the beating of my heart,
And I was positive that unless I got myself together,
I would watch me fall apart.
And I can't let that happen again
'cause then you'll see my heart
In the saddest state it's ever been.
i should feel really guilty,
but i don't
feel anything,
for anyone,
but you.
I put on a face everyday,
A face that everyone can see through,
Beneath the smiles and laughs too,
Is the inevitable pain and sorrow.
Why do I bother to wear this,
This face that is made of lies,
This face is to show you
what you did to my heart.
You could see into my heart,
Every secret here and there,
You could see what no one else could,
And feel what no one else felt.
I gave you the power
To break my heart, and fooled myself to believe it.
My face that I wear each day,
Is to show you what its like,
To have your heart ripped out,
And how hard it is to stay strong.
But one thing that you taught me.
And I still love you for that,
That a heart is only shattered,
If you never pick up the pieces.
Can you honestly tell me that when you look in my eyes, you feel nothing? Because if you can say those words to me, I will walk away and never bother you again. But if you cannot.. If you feel even the slightest tug at your heart that says, "This guy is special" then I can't be all wrong in thinking that maybe, just maybe -- we belong together.
call your number , i cannot get through. you dont hear me and i don't understand when i reach out i don't find your hand. were they wasted words and did they mean a thing. and all that precious time i still feel so in between. some day i just pretending, dreaming of a different ending. i wanna hold on but it hurts so bad. i can't keep something that i never had. i keep telling myself thigns can turn in time. and if i wait it out you can always change your mind.
Blame everyone but me for this mess
& my back has been breaking from this heavy heart
We never seemed so far
I'm hopelessly hopeful you're just hopeless enough
But we never had it at all
& the record won't stop skipping
& the lies just won't stop slipping
& besides my reputation's on the line
We can fake it for the airwaves
Force our smiles,
baby, i'm half dead
From comparing myself to everyone else around me
and i've become content
with this life that i lead
where i drink too much
and don't believe in much of anything
and I need you by my side with your delicate heart.
So please don't leave,
I thought you'd come and go,
I never thought you would stay.
And I'm sorry if I tried to push you away.
I know there'll be risks but I want to face them with you. It's wrong that we should be only half alive... half of ourselves. I love you. So here I am - standing in your doorway. I have always been standing in your doorway. Isn't it about time somebody saved your life?
I'm thinking of quitting drinking again
I know, I've said that a couple times
And I'm always changing my mind, well, I guess I am
But theres this burn in my stomach and theres this pain in my side
And when I kneel at the toilet
And the mornings clean light pours in through the window
Sometimes I pray I don't die
I'm a goddamn hypocrite
This is my heart bleeding before you,
This is me down on my knees
these foolish games are tearing me apart
Your thoughtless words are breaking my heart
Youre breaking my heart
When you look in her eyes, and she's looking back in yours, everything feels not quite normal, because you feel stronger, and weaker at the same time. You feel excited, and at the same time, terrified. The truth is you don't know what you feel, except you know what kind of man you want to be. It's as if you've reached the unreachable, and you weren't ready for it.
You will never forget your First Love that`s what makes it so special . you love so hard , so deep , so intensely because you don`t know any different . it`s the best until its over . then you hurt like you`ve never been hurt before . eventually you love again but you'll love differently , you will love more carefully , more cautiously ;; continuously comparing everyone To Your First Love
and i drink. drink to forget, forget the kisses, the sweet little notes, the feeling of being in your arms, of you, loving me. i drink to forget what we had.
i act like shit don't phase me
inside, it drives me crazy.
my insecurities could eat me alive.
Tear stained cheeks are just my style
i've had the time of my life
no i never felt this way before
yes i swear it's the truth
& i owe it all to you
You've been a part of my life for so very long
It's hard for me to believe sometimes
That you're really gone
I tuck your memory away in that special hiding place
Hoping no one could tell by the look on my face
That you're still in my heart, always on my mind
Part of me every day ...
You're the closest thing I have to bring up in a conversation about a love that didn't last. It's not that our love died, it just never really bloomed. Well, I can't let go. I can't let go of you. You're holding me back without even trying to. I can't let go. I can't move on from the past. Without lifting a finger you're holding me back. And then I saw our paths diverge, and I guess I felt O.K. about it until you got with another girl. I couldn't understand why it bothered me so. And it might not make much sense to you or any of my friends, though, somehow, still you affect the things I do. I don't understand why I feel sad every time I see you out with someone new.
I can't let go of you.
your stomach's filled up but you're starved for conversation.
you're spending all your night growin' old in your bed
& you're starin' at your photos cause you wanna forget, it's over.
you made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take.
you know i'd go to fucking Hell for you
there i go, believing you again
You are everything I never knew I always wanted.
You always put me second.
But, I always put you first.
I guess I'm just not worth it.
I guess it's just not fair.
But then again, what is?
You were the first to make me feel like this.
You know how I feel about you.
I just don't know what to do.
Don't say you forgot what I need,
Cause' all I need is you.
Words are only words.
can you show me something else?
what if i was good to you? what if
you were good to me? what if i
could hold you til i feel you
move inside of me? what if it
was paradise? what if we were
symphonies?
when you look at me,
it's like you're secretly
trying to tell me
not to give up hope.
but i just want you to know something:
i almost already have.
When i feel numb i'll let you know,
I won't become what i was before
what i used to be
will pass away.
and then you'll see
all i want now is happiness
for you and me.
we could leave this town & Run Forever
to some degree i still regret my memory for keeping you around. i thought that you were mine but my broken hearts been shattered one to many times. and i don`t want to see you anymore , i`m just not that strong . i love it when you're here but i`m better when you're gone . i`m certain that ive given and oh how you can take theres no use in you looking there`s nothing left for you to break . baby please release me , let my heart rest in pieces
This is the worst mistake I've made, and I make thousands every day. If you give this one more shot I'll make it up in every way. I'll call you twice a day and drive you to the airport just so I can watch you leave. Even if you're leaving me.
Theres a crystal lake of all the tears I've cried
The thing that hurts the most is i cant even hate you.
Trust me, i tried. With everything i have, i tried.
But still, at the end of the day it's all only words
During the night I lay in bed
Thinking about the way we kissed
And how much i love your smile
ending with the way you ruined it all.
The only decision left is the one that
I need to make with myself-- to stop running... once and for all.
- Dawsons Creek
the hurt began to fade,
and it was easier to just let go,
at least i thought it was,
but in every girl i met since,
i found myself looking for you,
and when the feelings got too strong,
i'd write you another letter,
but i never sent them,
in fear of what i might find,
by then, you'd gone on with your life,
and i didnt want to think about
you loving someone else,
i wanted to remember us
like we were those months,
i didnt ever want to forget that
stay awake for one more night
i'll pretend that i'm okay.
every one says i'll be alright
but i'm dreaming of things
better then you know.
would it hurt for me to make it?
would it hurt for me to let this go?
Spend all your time waiting
For that second chance
For a break that would make it okay
There’s always one reason
To feel not good enough
he fools all his friends into thinkin hes so strong
but he still sleeps with the light on
and he acts like its alright
and he smiles again
and his friends dont understand him
hes a question without answers
who feels like fallin apart
he knows hes so much more than worthless
he needs to find a purpose
he wonders what he does to deserve this
he can't hide no matter how hard he tries
His secret disguised behind the lies
And at night he crys away his pride
With eyes shut tight staring at him inside
All his friends know why he can't sleep at night
All his family askin' if he's alright
All he wants to do is get rid of this hell
Well all he's got to do is stop kiddin' hhiself
he can only fool hisself for so long
Sadness everyday for me. You cant take that away from me. All these fuckin thoughts inside my head, are almost more than I can take. You push and pull on me, your gonna keep pushin till I break
Now it's just me and my hard-driven guilt,
Behind the wall of emptiness I allowed to be built.
lately i can't be happy for no one
i need some time to myself
i try to smile but i can't remember how
i know tomorrow there'll be nothing left
LAST TiME YOU THAT YOU YELLED AT ME
i SWORE i HEARD YOU SAY --
-- i WiSH i HADN'T MET YOU AT ALL
Just so you know, you'll never know.
I've been running around for the last year trying to find some clarity and all of a sudden I am so clear, and it's ridiculous, I want to be with you
i'm sorry for the things i've said
it's been a really long week
and i know that doesn't justify
but for a while things were looking bleak
and i don't have much to look forward to
i've got long drives and slow rain and photographs
and all these things i keep inside myself
i'm right back where i've really always been
i got over you just long enough
to let my heartache mend.
then today i started loving you again
i write mostly on paper now
knowing my thoughts will never leave this room
i'd be out of line telling you to leave him
so i lie here alone
lately i can't be happy for no one
they think i need some time to myself
i try to smile but i can't remember how
i know tomorrow there'll be nothing else
and i wanted to be giving you everything
you turn out to be more than i bargained for
forgive me that i love you
we both realized it way too late.
I was puttin my heart and soul on the line
Said you needed some time, just a little more time to make up your mind
Well its been long enough
Time is up
I talk to absolutely no one.
Couldn't keep to myself enough.
And the things bottled inside have finally begun
To create so much pressure that I'll soon blow up.
I heard the reverberating footsteps
Synching up to the beating of my heart,
And I was positive that unless I got myself together,
I would watch me fall apart.
And I can't let that happen again
'cause then you'll see my heart
In the saddest state it's ever been.
i should feel really guilty,
but i don't
feel anything,
for anyone,
but you.
I put on a face everyday,
A face that everyone can see through,
Beneath the smiles and laughs too,
Is the inevitable pain and sorrow.
Why do I bother to wear this,
This face that is made of lies,
This face is to show you
what you did to my heart.
You could see into my heart,
Every secret here and there,
You could see what no one else could,
And feel what no one else felt.
I gave you the power
To break my heart, and fooled myself to believe it.
My face that I wear each day,
Is to show you what its like,
To have your heart ripped out,
And how hard it is to stay strong.
But one thing that you taught me.
And I still love you for that,
That a heart is only shattered,
If you never pick up the pieces.
Can you honestly tell me that when you look in my eyes, you feel nothing? Because if you can say those words to me, I will walk away and never bother you again. But if you cannot.. If you feel even the slightest tug at your heart that says, "This guy is special" then I can't be all wrong in thinking that maybe, just maybe -- we belong together.
call your number , i cannot get through. you dont hear me and i don't understand when i reach out i don't find your hand. were they wasted words and did they mean a thing. and all that precious time i still feel so in between. some day i just pretending, dreaming of a different ending. i wanna hold on but it hurts so bad. i can't keep something that i never had. i keep telling myself thigns can turn in time. and if i wait it out you can always change your mind.
Blame everyone but me for this mess
& my back has been breaking from this heavy heart
We never seemed so far
I'm hopelessly hopeful you're just hopeless enough
But we never had it at all
& the record won't stop skipping
& the lies just won't stop slipping
& besides my reputation's on the line
We can fake it for the airwaves
Force our smiles,
baby, i'm half dead
From comparing myself to everyone else around me
and i've become content
with this life that i lead
where i drink too much
and don't believe in much of anything
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