Painful Memories
So while it was storming and stuff I decided to sit out, and try to capture a pic of lightning, and I just so managed to do so, and put it on my deviant art site, so you should check it out. ;)
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In ancient Greece, Socrates was reputed to hold knowledge in high esteem. One day one fellow met the great philosopher and said, "Do you know what I just heard about your friend?". "Hold on a minute," Socrates replied. "Before telling me anything I'd like you to pass a little test. It's called the Triple Filter Test.".
"Triple filter?". "Thats right," Socrates continued. "Before you talk to me about my friend, it might be a good idea to take a moment and filter what you're going to say. That's why I call it the triple filter test."
"The first filter is truth. Have you made absolutely sure that what you are about to tell me is true?" "No," the man said, "Actually I just heard about it and...". "All right," said Socrates. "So you don't know if it's true or not."
"Now lets try the second filter, the filter of Goodness. Is what you are about to tell me about my friend something good?". "No, on the contrary...". "So," Socrates continued, "you want to tell me something bad about my friend, but you are not certain if it is true."
"You may still pass the test thouh, because there's one filter left: The filter of usefulness. Is what you want to tell me about my friend going to be usefull to me?" "No not really." "Well," concluded Socrates, "if what you want to tell me is neither true nor good nor even useful, why tell it to me at all?"
This is why Socrates was a great philosopher and held in such high esteem.
Use this filter each time you hear loose talk about any of your near and dear friends
Chris's Memories Cause Him Pain At 11:22 AM
"Triple filter?". "Thats right," Socrates continued. "Before you talk to me about my friend, it might be a good idea to take a moment and filter what you're going to say. That's why I call it the triple filter test."
"The first filter is truth. Have you made absolutely sure that what you are about to tell me is true?" "No," the man said, "Actually I just heard about it and...". "All right," said Socrates. "So you don't know if it's true or not."
"Now lets try the second filter, the filter of Goodness. Is what you are about to tell me about my friend something good?". "No, on the contrary...". "So," Socrates continued, "you want to tell me something bad about my friend, but you are not certain if it is true."
"You may still pass the test thouh, because there's one filter left: The filter of usefulness. Is what you want to tell me about my friend going to be usefull to me?" "No not really." "Well," concluded Socrates, "if what you want to tell me is neither true nor good nor even useful, why tell it to me at all?"
This is why Socrates was a great philosopher and held in such high esteem.
Use this filter each time you hear loose talk about any of your near and dear friends
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Hiding in the shadows
Of who I'm supposed to be.
Why can't anyone accept
That this is the real me?
Of who I'm supposed to be.
Why can't anyone accept
That this is the real me?
The person that lives for the moment.
The person that cries at night.
That outgoing, but shy person
The person who tries to please everyone
And gets nothing in return.
That person that takes the easy way
Because they are too afraid to learn.
The person that cries at night.
That outgoing, but shy person
The person who tries to please everyone
And gets nothing in return.
That person that takes the easy way
Because they are too afraid to learn.
I'm trying to find what seems
to be missing from my life.
I can't find that piece that
will once more hold me together.
I'm holding on to my dreams
Of being happy once again.
I just keep wishing that my life
Will be simple like it was back then.
to be missing from my life.
I can't find that piece that
will once more hold me together.
I'm holding on to my dreams
Of being happy once again.
I just keep wishing that my life
Will be simple like it was back then.
Pain is reflected in my eyes.
Fear is hidden in my heart.
I decided to hide who I am right from the start.
Emotions has overtaken my life,
Controlling every move I make.
Now I only wonder
How much more of this I can take.
Fear is hidden in my heart.
I decided to hide who I am right from the start.
Emotions has overtaken my life,
Controlling every move I make.
Now I only wonder
How much more of this I can take.
I keep getting lost.
Never knowing where I belongs.
Fighting to escape the past
that's filled with so many wrongs.
But first, I have to let it go
To be able to move ahead.
I have to forget everytime
That I was ever mislead.
I need to pick myself up
off the cold, wet ground.
I need to find a way
to make myself unbound.
Never knowing where I belongs.
Fighting to escape the past
that's filled with so many wrongs.
But first, I have to let it go
To be able to move ahead.
I have to forget everytime
That I was ever mislead.
I need to pick myself up
off the cold, wet ground.
I need to find a way
to make myself unbound.
Unbound of the lies.
Unbound of the fears.
Unbound of the pain.
Unbound of the tears.
Unbound of all the emotions
Unbound of the fears.
Unbound of the pain.
Unbound of the tears.
Unbound of all the emotions
I need to learn how
To stand up tall
And not let anyone
Make me fall.
I need to be myself
And live my life my way.
I need to stand my ground
And start my new life today.
To stand up tall
And not let anyone
Make me fall.
I need to be myself
And live my life my way.
I need to stand my ground
And start my new life today.
Fight my way to happiness.
Remove the tears from my eyes.
Give up the pain and torment
to all those stars in the skies.
Finally believing in the person I am
And who I was meant to be.
Because finally I'm accepting
That this is the true me.
Remove the tears from my eyes.
Give up the pain and torment
to all those stars in the skies.
Finally believing in the person I am
And who I was meant to be.
Because finally I'm accepting
That this is the true me.
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So me and some friends watch "Whoppie on Broadway" last night, and she talks alot about Bush, and the things he has done since becoming president. She says that she thinks we sent the soliders on a bull shit mission in Iraq, and she asks questions like, "Why havn't we found Osama?", and how Bush answered that question when asked by a reporter, "cause he's hiding", well call me crazy but wasn't Sadam hiding when we found him? And after they said that there were no weopons of mass destrution, it was just bad intelligence... if they wanted to see bad intelligence, all they had to do was look at our president. If we would have spent all the time, money, and resources in Afganastan that we have in Iraq, I bet that we could have found Osama by now, but its almost like Bush dons't seem to care if we find him, he is more worried about Oil, so he can make his self rich, since his family owns a Gas company or an oil company or something like that. I wish he would get something something, so we could impeach him. Anyways enough complaining about all this, let me get back to why I started to write this to begin with, Whoppie said that everytime we see him on TV, or hear his speachs, we should start to hum this little song "Every move you make Every step you take Every single day Every word you say Every vow you break Every claim you stake I'll be watching you" Granted I edited it, but you get the point. If people start watching, and seeing what is going on, and letting it be known that we are watching, maybe things will change. I for one, am sick of bending over, and taking it up the *ss, all our rights they are taking away, everything they are changing, trying to make the US safer. And other things they are trying to do, like the gay marrige ban... if you don't agree with gay marrige, and it upsets you so much, that you think it should be banned, I have a little advice for you, DON'T MARRY A GAY PERSON, it's as easy as that. let people be, they don't try to push there believes or lifestyles on you. And the whole Bible Scripture that people throw at gay people, has any one ever read the rest of that chapter. It also says that "Any child who curses his/her parents shall be put to death", are we supposed to take that litteral? If so how many people would be alive today? Also, in that chapter it says "A man who sleeps in a bed where a woman has had her period shall be put to death", again, how many of us would be alive today? I don't think that the scripture people throw at gay people, should be taken litteral, and if they want to, then they should take the rest of the things said, in that same paragraph litteral, but we see how stupid that is, so why can't we see that if a man loves a man, or a women loves a women, that is there choice, and we should leave them alone. Like I said, I won't marry a gay person, cause I am not gay, but I have friends that are, and I think they should have the oppertuinity to get married to there partner should they choose to do so, just like I have the oppertunity to marry a women, if I should chose to do so. Just let people be. That is my view on it. I think it should be legal everywhere for gay people to get married, not just certain states. Anyways I am done now :)
"Every move you make Every step you take Every single day Every word you say Every vow you break Every claim you stake I'll be watching you... George"
Chris's Memories Cause Him Pain At 10:38 PM
"Every move you make Every step you take Every single day Every word you say Every vow you break Every claim you stake I'll be watching you... George"
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I'm really tired.
Life's too busy for me.
It won't stop for me.
It won't stop for me.
Everyone's going around,
revolving with the world,
and I am left to stand
alone and stare.
Every once in a while,
Every once in a while,
someone would come
to me and smile.
But not because
they notice me.
It is only because
they need something from me.
I'm really tired.
I don't want to think anymore.
And sometimes,
I don't want to feel as well.
I feel so used and abused.
I feel so used and abused.
Taken for granted
and taken advantaged of.
Everyone comes to me
because they think
I can help them.
They need me to do
something for them.
It is not because they see me.
I can't remember going out
I can't remember going out
anymore because they want
to spend time with me.
They want to be with me
because they need someone
to listen to them,
someone to comfort them.
And I wonder, would they ever
look at me if they were
so high up there
and happy with their own life?
Would I be able to see
Would I be able to see
someone smile at me
because of me...
because I am me?
Or would I only see
that smile when I
help you in your need?
I feel invisible.
I feel invisible.
A passing wind,
no one sees,
no one notices.
A wind they're too sure
that would always be there
that it don't matter if they
leave me behind
and forget me for a while.
I had always been there
I had always been there
for you guys, right?
Would someone be there
for me too? I ask not
to return the favor,
I did those things
because I care.
But I do ask not
to be forgotten
and taken for granted.
Do not think that
I am always there.
Because sometimes,
I too am in need.
Don't depend on me so much,
because I am like you
and I cannot do everything for you.
I will do what I can,
but don't think of me as your savior.
Don't use me only when you're in need,
like a toy you play with when you're lonely.
I wish someone would
I wish someone would
smile at me when they SEE me.
I wish someone would...LOVE me...
Instead of USING me....LOVE me
just because...and not after I have helped them...
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I want to get out of this town.
I feel like this town is sucking the life out of me.
It builds up over time, and some days
it's worse than others - I think it comes after it rains.
I don't see a future for myself in this town.
This town is like a black hole, sucking people in
and never letting them go. Nothing changes.
Nobody changes. The faces may change,
I feel like this town is sucking the life out of me.
It builds up over time, and some days
it's worse than others - I think it comes after it rains.
I don't see a future for myself in this town.
This town is like a black hole, sucking people in
and never letting them go. Nothing changes.
Nobody changes. The faces may change,
but the underlying person stays the same.
There is no growth of any sort.
I don't see any change, I don't see any growth,
I don't see anything getting better.
I don't want to live out the rest of my life
I don't want to live out the rest of my life
in some hopeless, dead-end town.
I don't want that kind of life for myself, or my family.
I need to get out, I need a change of pace.
I need to get out, I need a change of pace.
I need to escape, even if it's just for a day.
I need to leave and retreive what it is
this town has taken away from me.
Of course, the hardest part of leaving
Of course, the hardest part of leaving
a town like this is knowing that eventually
..... you have to come back.
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Sometimes, I really really hate being grown up...
I hate having responsiblities.
I hate having to go to a stupid job
that I don't like, day in and day out...
I hate having to come home
with the same worries that I left with,
no real solution in sight.
I hate not having anyone to talk to,
nobody's shoulder to cry on,
nobody to say goodnight to when I get home
cause I know when I get home, it's just me.
I hate waking up with the same headache
I went to sleep with
I hate crying when I get frustrated.
I hate doing this alone,
I hate worrying about money all the time...
I hate feeling like my world
is full of dispair and disappointment.
I hate that I'm angry all the time at everyone,
I hate that my future just looks bleak and meaningless.
I hate getting knocked down and convincing myself
to get back up and try again....
I hate that my dad can't understand me and accept me...
I hate that I cry alone at night.
I hate that I don't have any
confindence in myself right now....
I hate that I'm failing.
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To say that life isn't fair would be a serious understatement. I think for everything that I've been through in my short 22 years, I deserve a break of some sort. Even a short one would be nice...just to give myself a chance to get my head together. I'm tired of being disappointed in myself and others all the time...I mean, it would be different if I were sitting around whining and complaining all the time about this stuff, and not doing anything to better my situation. But I am trying....I'm trying so unbelievably hard. I feel like if I weren't going at this totally alone, it wouldn't be so hard...but since it's just me, I don't have anyone else to look to for help. Well, maybe not totally alone, but I'm not sharing the load with anyone else, either. I'm getting discouraged, something I promised myself I wouldn't do. I can't encourage people I know and cheer them up if I'm not going to encourage myself. I hate to sound like a broken record, saying that same things over and over again. There's so much more I want to write about, but this is really at the forefront of my mind. And it's not like I want much... all I want is someone to ask my how my day was, and actually stick around to hear the answer, good or bad, long or short. I want someone to cook dinner for or with, and sit around and talk about normal, everyday stuff at the table. I want someone to talk to while we prepare for our days at work. I want someone to encourage me when I think I can't do it anymore, someone to console me when the tears fall, someone beside me when I'm lonely. I just want someone around.... cause I am sick of being alone. I miss being the other half of a couple. It's not that I'm desperate because I'm not....it's just lonely being alone.
Chris's Memories Cause Him Pain At 3:28 AM
I hate having responsiblities.
I hate having to go to a stupid job
that I don't like, day in and day out...
I hate having to come home
with the same worries that I left with,
no real solution in sight.
I hate not having anyone to talk to,
nobody's shoulder to cry on,
nobody to say goodnight to when I get home
cause I know when I get home, it's just me.
I hate waking up with the same headache
I went to sleep with
I hate crying when I get frustrated.
I hate doing this alone,
I hate worrying about money all the time...
I hate feeling like my world
is full of dispair and disappointment.
I hate that I'm angry all the time at everyone,
I hate that my future just looks bleak and meaningless.
I hate getting knocked down and convincing myself
to get back up and try again....
I hate that my dad can't understand me and accept me...
I hate that I cry alone at night.
I hate that I don't have any
confindence in myself right now....
I hate that I'm failing.
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To say that life isn't fair would be a serious understatement. I think for everything that I've been through in my short 22 years, I deserve a break of some sort. Even a short one would be nice...just to give myself a chance to get my head together. I'm tired of being disappointed in myself and others all the time...I mean, it would be different if I were sitting around whining and complaining all the time about this stuff, and not doing anything to better my situation. But I am trying....I'm trying so unbelievably hard. I feel like if I weren't going at this totally alone, it wouldn't be so hard...but since it's just me, I don't have anyone else to look to for help. Well, maybe not totally alone, but I'm not sharing the load with anyone else, either. I'm getting discouraged, something I promised myself I wouldn't do. I can't encourage people I know and cheer them up if I'm not going to encourage myself. I hate to sound like a broken record, saying that same things over and over again. There's so much more I want to write about, but this is really at the forefront of my mind. And it's not like I want much... all I want is someone to ask my how my day was, and actually stick around to hear the answer, good or bad, long or short. I want someone to cook dinner for or with, and sit around and talk about normal, everyday stuff at the table. I want someone to talk to while we prepare for our days at work. I want someone to encourage me when I think I can't do it anymore, someone to console me when the tears fall, someone beside me when I'm lonely. I just want someone around.... cause I am sick of being alone. I miss being the other half of a couple. It's not that I'm desperate because I'm not....it's just lonely being alone.
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It's easier for them to walk away
than it is for them to reach out to me
It's easier for them to look away,
than it is for them to see the depths of my despair
It's easier for them to look through me,
than it is for them to see me
It's easier for them to distance themselfs,
than it is for them to really care
It's easier for them to judge,
than it is for them to understand
It's easier for them to hear,
than it is for them to listen
It's easier for them to label,
than it is to get aquainted
It's easier for them to bask in there joy,
than it is for them to feel my pain
It's wasier for them to bewilder at my mysteries,
than it is for them to probe deeply into the depths of my soul
It's easier for me to look away,
than it is to let them see the feelings betrayed through my eyes
It is easier for me to cry,
than it is for me to talk
It's easier for me to walk alone,
than it is to risk rejection
It's easier for me to push them away,
then it is for me to be held
It's easier for me to distance myself,
than it is to trust that they won't hurt me
It's easier for me to die,
than it is for me to face life's challenges
It's hard for me to smile when I'm hurting
It's hard for me to tell what they won't understand
It's hard for me to reach out when I need help the most
If only you'd really look at me and see who I really am
If only you cared enough to reach out when I push you away
If only you'd hold me, without asking why
If only you'd acknowledge the validity of my feelings
But its the easy roads that are most often taken
And I am left here, alone in that fork in the road of life
than it is for them to reach out to me
It's easier for them to look away,
than it is for them to see the depths of my despair
It's easier for them to look through me,
than it is for them to see me
It's easier for them to distance themselfs,
than it is for them to really care
It's easier for them to judge,
than it is for them to understand
It's easier for them to hear,
than it is for them to listen
It's easier for them to label,
than it is to get aquainted
It's easier for them to bask in there joy,
than it is for them to feel my pain
It's wasier for them to bewilder at my mysteries,
than it is for them to probe deeply into the depths of my soul
It's easier for me to look away,
than it is to let them see the feelings betrayed through my eyes
It is easier for me to cry,
than it is for me to talk
It's easier for me to walk alone,
than it is to risk rejection
It's easier for me to push them away,
then it is for me to be held
It's easier for me to distance myself,
than it is to trust that they won't hurt me
It's easier for me to die,
than it is for me to face life's challenges
It's hard for me to smile when I'm hurting
It's hard for me to tell what they won't understand
It's hard for me to reach out when I need help the most
If only you'd really look at me and see who I really am
If only you cared enough to reach out when I push you away
If only you'd hold me, without asking why
If only you'd acknowledge the validity of my feelings
But its the easy roads that are most often taken
And I am left here, alone in that fork in the road of life
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I can't remember why we fell apart,
From something that was so meant to be,
Forever was the promise in our hearts.
Now, more and more I wonder where you are.
Do I ever cross your mind, anytime?
Do you ever wake up reaching out for me?
Do I ever cross your mind anytime?
I miss you...
Still have your picture in a frame.
Hear your footsteps down the hall.
I swear I hear your voice, driving me insane.
How I wish that you would call, to say...
Do I ever cross your mind, anytime?
Do you ever wake up reaching out for me?
Do I ever cross your mind anytime?
I miss you...
(No more) loneliness and heartache...
(No more) crying myself to sleep.
(Don't want no more) wondering about tomorrow.
Won't you come back to me?
Come back to me...
I miss you."
From something that was so meant to be,
Forever was the promise in our hearts.
Now, more and more I wonder where you are.
Do I ever cross your mind, anytime?
Do you ever wake up reaching out for me?
Do I ever cross your mind anytime?
I miss you...
Still have your picture in a frame.
Hear your footsteps down the hall.
I swear I hear your voice, driving me insane.
How I wish that you would call, to say...
Do I ever cross your mind, anytime?
Do you ever wake up reaching out for me?
Do I ever cross your mind anytime?
I miss you...
(No more) loneliness and heartache...
(No more) crying myself to sleep.
(Don't want no more) wondering about tomorrow.
Won't you come back to me?
Come back to me...
I miss you."
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I want more and I want it now.
I want her to shit or get off the pot.
I want her to tell me to move on.
I want her to be the adult.
I want her to walk away and not look back.
I want her to tell me its going to hurt but in the end it will be alright.
I want her to love me.
I want her to love me enough to let me go.
I want a wife.
I want kids.
I want a family.
I want peace in my life for more than an hour.
I just want what I want...selfish..maybe
I want her to shit or get off the pot.
I want her to tell me to move on.
I want her to be the adult.
I want her to walk away and not look back.
I want her to tell me its going to hurt but in the end it will be alright.
I want her to love me.
I want her to love me enough to let me go.
I want a wife.
I want kids.
I want a family.
I want peace in my life for more than an hour.
I just want what I want...selfish..maybe
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"We are all writing the story of our life.
We want to know what it's "about,"
what are its themes and which theme is on the rise.
We demand of it something deeper,
or richer, or more substantive.
We want to know where we're headed
not to spoil our own ending by ruining the surprise,
but we want to ensure that when the ending comes, it won't be shallow.
We will have done something.
We will not have squandered our time here."
Looking for guidance and courage at this crossroads,
I became intrigued by people who had unearthed their true calling,
or at least those who were willing to try.
Those who fought with the seduction of money,
intensity, and novelty, but overcame their allure.
Those who broke away from the chorus
to learn the sound of their own voice.
Nothing seemed more brave to me
than facing up to one's own identity,
and filtering out the chatter
that tells us to be someone we're not.
--- What Should I Do with My Life?
We want to know what it's "about,"
what are its themes and which theme is on the rise.
We demand of it something deeper,
or richer, or more substantive.
We want to know where we're headed
not to spoil our own ending by ruining the surprise,
but we want to ensure that when the ending comes, it won't be shallow.
We will have done something.
We will not have squandered our time here."
Looking for guidance and courage at this crossroads,
I became intrigued by people who had unearthed their true calling,
or at least those who were willing to try.
Those who fought with the seduction of money,
intensity, and novelty, but overcame their allure.
Those who broke away from the chorus
to learn the sound of their own voice.
Nothing seemed more brave to me
than facing up to one's own identity,
and filtering out the chatter
that tells us to be someone we're not.
--- What Should I Do with My Life?
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Updated the about me thing, moved things around, added new stuff, if you have time and feel like reading it, you should :)
Chris's Memories Cause Him Pain At 12:04 PM
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I hate when I get so depressed.
When everything just goes wrong at once,
and I try so hard to fight it off.
But the tears, they eventually come.
I'm so scared of falling, cause once I do,
it's fight after fight to get back up.
It could take days, months, years even.
I don't know if I have the support I need anymore
and I know I don't have the strength to do it alone
When everything just goes wrong at once,
and I try so hard to fight it off.
But the tears, they eventually come.
I'm so scared of falling, cause once I do,
it's fight after fight to get back up.
It could take days, months, years even.
I don't know if I have the support I need anymore
and I know I don't have the strength to do it alone
I hope to keep it fought off... cause I know
if I fall, this time its going to be the worst time ever
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A MESSAGE FOR BIN LADEN
Osama Bin Laden, your time is short;
We'd rather you die, than come to court.
Why are you hiding if it was in God's name?
Your just a punk with a turban; a pathetic shame.
I have a question, about your theory and laws;
"How come you never die for the cause?"
Is it because you're a coward who counts on others?
Well here in America, we stand by our brothers.
As is usual, you failed in your mission;
If you expected pure chaos, you can keep on wishin'
Americans are now focused and stronger than ever;
Your death has become our next endeavor.
What you tried to kill, doesn't live in our walls;
It's not in buildings or shopping malls.
If all of our structures came crashing down;
It would still be there, safe and sound.
Because pride and courage can't be destroyed;
Even if the towers leave a deep void.
We'll band together and fill the holes
We'll bury our dead and bless their souls.
But then our energy will focus on you;
And you'll feel the wrath of the Red, White and Blue.
So slither and hide like a snake in the grass;
Because America's coming to kick your ass!
Osama Bin Laden, your time is short;
We'd rather you die, than come to court.
Why are you hiding if it was in God's name?
Your just a punk with a turban; a pathetic shame.
I have a question, about your theory and laws;
"How come you never die for the cause?"
Is it because you're a coward who counts on others?
Well here in America, we stand by our brothers.
As is usual, you failed in your mission;
If you expected pure chaos, you can keep on wishin'
Americans are now focused and stronger than ever;
Your death has become our next endeavor.
What you tried to kill, doesn't live in our walls;
It's not in buildings or shopping malls.
If all of our structures came crashing down;
It would still be there, safe and sound.
Because pride and courage can't be destroyed;
Even if the towers leave a deep void.
We'll band together and fill the holes
We'll bury our dead and bless their souls.
But then our energy will focus on you;
And you'll feel the wrath of the Red, White and Blue.
So slither and hide like a snake in the grass;
Because America's coming to kick your ass!
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Do things really happen for a deeper reason?
When you're trying to move on,
When you're trying to move on,
and you're actually almost there...
then suddenly, just like that something happens
to make you turn back to that painful stage...
Does that happen for a deeper reason as well?
When you return to nothing...
When you go back for something
When you return to nothing...
When you go back for something
you thought was there...but really wasn't...
What's the reason for that?
Why can't the circumstances have left you
What's the reason for that?
Why can't the circumstances have left you
alone on the road away from the pain?
Towards the road of better possibilities...
I wish someone would be able to tell me
I wish someone would be able to tell me
because I realy can't understand.
I was really on my way...away from you...
So, why did the strings pull me back here?
Pulled me right back to you .
and left me so far away from you.
It really hurts.
Pulled me right back to you .
and left me so far away from you.
It really hurts.
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sometimes i wonder if
the loves truly still there.
even with the doubts
i still continue to go
through hell for you.
you know im not
gonna give up
but i'm getting impatient.
its been 9 months waiting now
how much longer do you really need.
of course i chose the worse time
to manuver my way back in your life.
but you could have just as easily shut me out.
instead you welcomed me back in.
i know your not mine any longer
but i'm trying to make this right.
i dont care that you've got another guy
cause i know he aint got nothing on me.
you and i both know he can never
love you the way i do and be all you deserve.
so here i am giving my all and barely hanging on.
i'll always be right where you left me.
awaiting for you to come back
and patch up all the wrongs.
it hurts.... but i'm still here.
the loves truly still there.
even with the doubts
i still continue to go
through hell for you.
you know im not
gonna give up
but i'm getting impatient.
its been 9 months waiting now
how much longer do you really need.
of course i chose the worse time
to manuver my way back in your life.
but you could have just as easily shut me out.
instead you welcomed me back in.
i know your not mine any longer
but i'm trying to make this right.
i dont care that you've got another guy
cause i know he aint got nothing on me.
you and i both know he can never
love you the way i do and be all you deserve.
so here i am giving my all and barely hanging on.
i'll always be right where you left me.
awaiting for you to come back
and patch up all the wrongs.
it hurts.... but i'm still here.
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I can feel the world coming apart,
and I need you by my side with your delicate heart.
So please don't leave,
I thought you'd come and go,
I never thought you would stay.
And I'm sorry if I tried to push you away.
I know there'll be risks but I want to face them with you. It's wrong that we should be only half alive... half of ourselves. I love you. So here I am - standing in your doorway. I have always been standing in your doorway. Isn't it about time somebody saved your life?
I'm thinking of quitting drinking again
I know, I've said that a couple times
And I'm always changing my mind, well, I guess I am
But theres this burn in my stomach and theres this pain in my side
And when I kneel at the toilet
And the mornings clean light pours in through the window
Sometimes I pray I don't die
I'm a goddamn hypocrite
This is my heart bleeding before you,
This is me down on my knees
these foolish games are tearing me apart
Your thoughtless words are breaking my heart
Youre breaking my heart
When you look in her eyes, and she's looking back in yours, everything feels not quite normal, because you feel stronger, and weaker at the same time. You feel excited, and at the same time, terrified. The truth is you don't know what you feel, except you know what kind of man you want to be. It's as if you've reached the unreachable, and you weren't ready for it.
You will never forget your First Love that`s what makes it so special . you love so hard , so deep , so intensely because you don`t know any different . it`s the best until its over . then you hurt like you`ve never been hurt before . eventually you love again but you'll love differently , you will love more carefully , more cautiously ;; continuously comparing everyone To Your First Love
and i drink. drink to forget, forget the kisses, the sweet little notes, the feeling of being in your arms, of you, loving me. i drink to forget what we had.
i act like shit don't phase me
inside, it drives me crazy.
my insecurities could eat me alive.
Tear stained cheeks are just my style
i've had the time of my life
no i never felt this way before
yes i swear it's the truth
& i owe it all to you
You've been a part of my life for so very long
It's hard for me to believe sometimes
That you're really gone
I tuck your memory away in that special hiding place
Hoping no one could tell by the look on my face
That you're still in my heart, always on my mind
Part of me every day ...
You're the closest thing I have to bring up in a conversation about a love that didn't last. It's not that our love died, it just never really bloomed. Well, I can't let go. I can't let go of you. You're holding me back without even trying to. I can't let go. I can't move on from the past. Without lifting a finger you're holding me back. And then I saw our paths diverge, and I guess I felt O.K. about it until you got with another girl. I couldn't understand why it bothered me so. And it might not make much sense to you or any of my friends, though, somehow, still you affect the things I do. I don't understand why I feel sad every time I see you out with someone new.
I can't let go of you.
your stomach's filled up but you're starved for conversation.
you're spending all your night growin' old in your bed
& you're starin' at your photos cause you wanna forget, it's over.
you made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take.
you know i'd go to fucking Hell for you
there i go, believing you again
You are everything I never knew I always wanted.
You always put me second.
But, I always put you first.
I guess I'm just not worth it.
I guess it's just not fair.
But then again, what is?
You were the first to make me feel like this.
You know how I feel about you.
I just don't know what to do.
Don't say you forgot what I need,
Cause' all I need is you.
Words are only words.
can you show me something else?
what if i was good to you? what if
you were good to me? what if i
could hold you til i feel you
move inside of me? what if it
was paradise? what if we were
symphonies?
when you look at me,
it's like you're secretly
trying to tell me
not to give up hope.
but i just want you to know something:
i almost already have.
When i feel numb i'll let you know,
I won't become what i was before
what i used to be
will pass away.
and then you'll see
all i want now is happiness
for you and me.
we could leave this town & Run Forever
to some degree i still regret my memory for keeping you around. i thought that you were mine but my broken hearts been shattered one to many times. and i don`t want to see you anymore , i`m just not that strong . i love it when you're here but i`m better when you're gone . i`m certain that ive given and oh how you can take theres no use in you looking there`s nothing left for you to break . baby please release me , let my heart rest in pieces
This is the worst mistake I've made, and I make thousands every day. If you give this one more shot I'll make it up in every way. I'll call you twice a day and drive you to the airport just so I can watch you leave. Even if you're leaving me.
Theres a crystal lake of all the tears I've cried
The thing that hurts the most is i cant even hate you.
Trust me, i tried. With everything i have, i tried.
But still, at the end of the day it's all only words
During the night I lay in bed
Thinking about the way we kissed
And how much i love your smile
ending with the way you ruined it all.
The only decision left is the one that
I need to make with myself-- to stop running... once and for all.
- Dawsons Creek
the hurt began to fade,
and it was easier to just let go,
at least i thought it was,
but in every girl i met since,
i found myself looking for you,
and when the feelings got too strong,
i'd write you another letter,
but i never sent them,
in fear of what i might find,
by then, you'd gone on with your life,
and i didnt want to think about
you loving someone else,
i wanted to remember us
like we were those months,
i didnt ever want to forget that
stay awake for one more night
i'll pretend that i'm okay.
every one says i'll be alright
but i'm dreaming of things
better then you know.
would it hurt for me to make it?
would it hurt for me to let this go?
Spend all your time waiting
For that second chance
For a break that would make it okay
There’s always one reason
To feel not good enough
he fools all his friends into thinkin hes so strong
but he still sleeps with the light on
and he acts like its alright
and he smiles again
and his friends dont understand him
hes a question without answers
who feels like fallin apart
he knows hes so much more than worthless
he needs to find a purpose
he wonders what he does to deserve this
he can't hide no matter how hard he tries
His secret disguised behind the lies
And at night he crys away his pride
With eyes shut tight staring at him inside
All his friends know why he can't sleep at night
All his family askin' if he's alright
All he wants to do is get rid of this hell
Well all he's got to do is stop kiddin' hhiself
he can only fool hisself for so long
Sadness everyday for me. You cant take that away from me. All these fuckin thoughts inside my head, are almost more than I can take. You push and pull on me, your gonna keep pushin till I break
Now it's just me and my hard-driven guilt,
Behind the wall of emptiness I allowed to be built.
lately i can't be happy for no one
i need some time to myself
i try to smile but i can't remember how
i know tomorrow there'll be nothing left
LAST TiME YOU THAT YOU YELLED AT ME
i SWORE i HEARD YOU SAY --
-- i WiSH i HADN'T MET YOU AT ALL
Just so you know, you'll never know.
I've been running around for the last year trying to find some clarity and all of a sudden I am so clear, and it's ridiculous, I want to be with you
i'm sorry for the things i've said
it's been a really long week
and i know that doesn't justify
but for a while things were looking bleak
and i don't have much to look forward to
i've got long drives and slow rain and photographs
and all these things i keep inside myself
i'm right back where i've really always been
i got over you just long enough
to let my heartache mend.
then today i started loving you again
i write mostly on paper now
knowing my thoughts will never leave this room
i'd be out of line telling you to leave him
so i lie here alone
lately i can't be happy for no one
they think i need some time to myself
i try to smile but i can't remember how
i know tomorrow there'll be nothing else
and i wanted to be giving you everything
you turn out to be more than i bargained for
forgive me that i love you
we both realized it way too late.
I was puttin my heart and soul on the line
Said you needed some time, just a little more time to make up your mind
Well its been long enough
Time is up
I talk to absolutely no one.
Couldn't keep to myself enough.
And the things bottled inside have finally begun
To create so much pressure that I'll soon blow up.
I heard the reverberating footsteps
Synching up to the beating of my heart,
And I was positive that unless I got myself together,
I would watch me fall apart.
And I can't let that happen again
'cause then you'll see my heart
In the saddest state it's ever been.
i should feel really guilty,
but i don't
feel anything,
for anyone,
but you.
I put on a face everyday,
A face that everyone can see through,
Beneath the smiles and laughs too,
Is the inevitable pain and sorrow.
Why do I bother to wear this,
This face that is made of lies,
This face is to show you
what you did to my heart.
You could see into my heart,
Every secret here and there,
You could see what no one else could,
And feel what no one else felt.
I gave you the power
To break my heart, and fooled myself to believe it.
My face that I wear each day,
Is to show you what its like,
To have your heart ripped out,
And how hard it is to stay strong.
But one thing that you taught me.
And I still love you for that,
That a heart is only shattered,
If you never pick up the pieces.
Can you honestly tell me that when you look in my eyes, you feel nothing? Because if you can say those words to me, I will walk away and never bother you again. But if you cannot.. If you feel even the slightest tug at your heart that says, "This guy is special" then I can't be all wrong in thinking that maybe, just maybe -- we belong together.
call your number , i cannot get through. you dont hear me and i don't understand when i reach out i don't find your hand. were they wasted words and did they mean a thing. and all that precious time i still feel so in between. some day i just pretending, dreaming of a different ending. i wanna hold on but it hurts so bad. i can't keep something that i never had. i keep telling myself thigns can turn in time. and if i wait it out you can always change your mind.
Blame everyone but me for this mess
& my back has been breaking from this heavy heart
We never seemed so far
I'm hopelessly hopeful you're just hopeless enough
But we never had it at all
& the record won't stop skipping
& the lies just won't stop slipping
& besides my reputation's on the line
We can fake it for the airwaves
Force our smiles,
baby, i'm half dead
From comparing myself to everyone else around me
and i've become content
with this life that i lead
where i drink too much
and don't believe in much of anything
and I need you by my side with your delicate heart.
So please don't leave,
I thought you'd come and go,
I never thought you would stay.
And I'm sorry if I tried to push you away.
I know there'll be risks but I want to face them with you. It's wrong that we should be only half alive... half of ourselves. I love you. So here I am - standing in your doorway. I have always been standing in your doorway. Isn't it about time somebody saved your life?
I'm thinking of quitting drinking again
I know, I've said that a couple times
And I'm always changing my mind, well, I guess I am
But theres this burn in my stomach and theres this pain in my side
And when I kneel at the toilet
And the mornings clean light pours in through the window
Sometimes I pray I don't die
I'm a goddamn hypocrite
This is my heart bleeding before you,
This is me down on my knees
these foolish games are tearing me apart
Your thoughtless words are breaking my heart
Youre breaking my heart
When you look in her eyes, and she's looking back in yours, everything feels not quite normal, because you feel stronger, and weaker at the same time. You feel excited, and at the same time, terrified. The truth is you don't know what you feel, except you know what kind of man you want to be. It's as if you've reached the unreachable, and you weren't ready for it.
You will never forget your First Love that`s what makes it so special . you love so hard , so deep , so intensely because you don`t know any different . it`s the best until its over . then you hurt like you`ve never been hurt before . eventually you love again but you'll love differently , you will love more carefully , more cautiously ;; continuously comparing everyone To Your First Love
and i drink. drink to forget, forget the kisses, the sweet little notes, the feeling of being in your arms, of you, loving me. i drink to forget what we had.
i act like shit don't phase me
inside, it drives me crazy.
my insecurities could eat me alive.
Tear stained cheeks are just my style
i've had the time of my life
no i never felt this way before
yes i swear it's the truth
& i owe it all to you
You've been a part of my life for so very long
It's hard for me to believe sometimes
That you're really gone
I tuck your memory away in that special hiding place
Hoping no one could tell by the look on my face
That you're still in my heart, always on my mind
Part of me every day ...
You're the closest thing I have to bring up in a conversation about a love that didn't last. It's not that our love died, it just never really bloomed. Well, I can't let go. I can't let go of you. You're holding me back without even trying to. I can't let go. I can't move on from the past. Without lifting a finger you're holding me back. And then I saw our paths diverge, and I guess I felt O.K. about it until you got with another girl. I couldn't understand why it bothered me so. And it might not make much sense to you or any of my friends, though, somehow, still you affect the things I do. I don't understand why I feel sad every time I see you out with someone new.
I can't let go of you.
your stomach's filled up but you're starved for conversation.
you're spending all your night growin' old in your bed
& you're starin' at your photos cause you wanna forget, it's over.
you made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take.
you know i'd go to fucking Hell for you
there i go, believing you again
You are everything I never knew I always wanted.
You always put me second.
But, I always put you first.
I guess I'm just not worth it.
I guess it's just not fair.
But then again, what is?
You were the first to make me feel like this.
You know how I feel about you.
I just don't know what to do.
Don't say you forgot what I need,
Cause' all I need is you.
Words are only words.
can you show me something else?
what if i was good to you? what if
you were good to me? what if i
could hold you til i feel you
move inside of me? what if it
was paradise? what if we were
symphonies?
when you look at me,
it's like you're secretly
trying to tell me
not to give up hope.
but i just want you to know something:
i almost already have.
When i feel numb i'll let you know,
I won't become what i was before
what i used to be
will pass away.
and then you'll see
all i want now is happiness
for you and me.
we could leave this town & Run Forever
to some degree i still regret my memory for keeping you around. i thought that you were mine but my broken hearts been shattered one to many times. and i don`t want to see you anymore , i`m just not that strong . i love it when you're here but i`m better when you're gone . i`m certain that ive given and oh how you can take theres no use in you looking there`s nothing left for you to break . baby please release me , let my heart rest in pieces
This is the worst mistake I've made, and I make thousands every day. If you give this one more shot I'll make it up in every way. I'll call you twice a day and drive you to the airport just so I can watch you leave. Even if you're leaving me.
Theres a crystal lake of all the tears I've cried
The thing that hurts the most is i cant even hate you.
Trust me, i tried. With everything i have, i tried.
But still, at the end of the day it's all only words
During the night I lay in bed
Thinking about the way we kissed
And how much i love your smile
ending with the way you ruined it all.
The only decision left is the one that
I need to make with myself-- to stop running... once and for all.
- Dawsons Creek
the hurt began to fade,
and it was easier to just let go,
at least i thought it was,
but in every girl i met since,
i found myself looking for you,
and when the feelings got too strong,
i'd write you another letter,
but i never sent them,
in fear of what i might find,
by then, you'd gone on with your life,
and i didnt want to think about
you loving someone else,
i wanted to remember us
like we were those months,
i didnt ever want to forget that
stay awake for one more night
i'll pretend that i'm okay.
every one says i'll be alright
but i'm dreaming of things
better then you know.
would it hurt for me to make it?
would it hurt for me to let this go?
Spend all your time waiting
For that second chance
For a break that would make it okay
There’s always one reason
To feel not good enough
he fools all his friends into thinkin hes so strong
but he still sleeps with the light on
and he acts like its alright
and he smiles again
and his friends dont understand him
hes a question without answers
who feels like fallin apart
he knows hes so much more than worthless
he needs to find a purpose
he wonders what he does to deserve this
he can't hide no matter how hard he tries
His secret disguised behind the lies
And at night he crys away his pride
With eyes shut tight staring at him inside
All his friends know why he can't sleep at night
All his family askin' if he's alright
All he wants to do is get rid of this hell
Well all he's got to do is stop kiddin' hhiself
he can only fool hisself for so long
Sadness everyday for me. You cant take that away from me. All these fuckin thoughts inside my head, are almost more than I can take. You push and pull on me, your gonna keep pushin till I break
Now it's just me and my hard-driven guilt,
Behind the wall of emptiness I allowed to be built.
lately i can't be happy for no one
i need some time to myself
i try to smile but i can't remember how
i know tomorrow there'll be nothing left
LAST TiME YOU THAT YOU YELLED AT ME
i SWORE i HEARD YOU SAY --
-- i WiSH i HADN'T MET YOU AT ALL
Just so you know, you'll never know.
I've been running around for the last year trying to find some clarity and all of a sudden I am so clear, and it's ridiculous, I want to be with you
i'm sorry for the things i've said
it's been a really long week
and i know that doesn't justify
but for a while things were looking bleak
and i don't have much to look forward to
i've got long drives and slow rain and photographs
and all these things i keep inside myself
i'm right back where i've really always been
i got over you just long enough
to let my heartache mend.
then today i started loving you again
i write mostly on paper now
knowing my thoughts will never leave this room
i'd be out of line telling you to leave him
so i lie here alone
lately i can't be happy for no one
they think i need some time to myself
i try to smile but i can't remember how
i know tomorrow there'll be nothing else
and i wanted to be giving you everything
you turn out to be more than i bargained for
forgive me that i love you
we both realized it way too late.
I was puttin my heart and soul on the line
Said you needed some time, just a little more time to make up your mind
Well its been long enough
Time is up
I talk to absolutely no one.
Couldn't keep to myself enough.
And the things bottled inside have finally begun
To create so much pressure that I'll soon blow up.
I heard the reverberating footsteps
Synching up to the beating of my heart,
And I was positive that unless I got myself together,
I would watch me fall apart.
And I can't let that happen again
'cause then you'll see my heart
In the saddest state it's ever been.
i should feel really guilty,
but i don't
feel anything,
for anyone,
but you.
I put on a face everyday,
A face that everyone can see through,
Beneath the smiles and laughs too,
Is the inevitable pain and sorrow.
Why do I bother to wear this,
This face that is made of lies,
This face is to show you
what you did to my heart.
You could see into my heart,
Every secret here and there,
You could see what no one else could,
And feel what no one else felt.
I gave you the power
To break my heart, and fooled myself to believe it.
My face that I wear each day,
Is to show you what its like,
To have your heart ripped out,
And how hard it is to stay strong.
But one thing that you taught me.
And I still love you for that,
That a heart is only shattered,
If you never pick up the pieces.
Can you honestly tell me that when you look in my eyes, you feel nothing? Because if you can say those words to me, I will walk away and never bother you again. But if you cannot.. If you feel even the slightest tug at your heart that says, "This guy is special" then I can't be all wrong in thinking that maybe, just maybe -- we belong together.
call your number , i cannot get through. you dont hear me and i don't understand when i reach out i don't find your hand. were they wasted words and did they mean a thing. and all that precious time i still feel so in between. some day i just pretending, dreaming of a different ending. i wanna hold on but it hurts so bad. i can't keep something that i never had. i keep telling myself thigns can turn in time. and if i wait it out you can always change your mind.
Blame everyone but me for this mess
& my back has been breaking from this heavy heart
We never seemed so far
I'm hopelessly hopeful you're just hopeless enough
But we never had it at all
& the record won't stop skipping
& the lies just won't stop slipping
& besides my reputation's on the line
We can fake it for the airwaves
Force our smiles,
baby, i'm half dead
From comparing myself to everyone else around me
and i've become content
with this life that i lead
where i drink too much
and don't believe in much of anything
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Question my intentions,
then you'll learn what drives me.
Question my emotions,
then you'll learn how I'll react to you
and to everything else in the world.
Question my actions,
then you'll learn about what it takes
for me to act out my feelings and ideas.
Question my taste in friends,
then you'll learn about all the
different pieces that makes me...me.
Question my past,
then you'll learn about how
I want my future to be.
Question my goals,
then you'll learn about my dreams
and what I believe might bring me happiness.
Question me about books, music, movies, and sports,
then you'll learn what interests me.
Question my intelligence
and I'll question you regarding yours.
Question me if I'm interested
and I'll question you back
if you think you've questioned me enough.
To question me is to challenge me,
to provoke me, and to intrigue me.
No matter my reaction, be that of
laughter, tears, approval, or irritation,
to question me is to grab my attention
and maybe, I might start to question as well.
Question me to learn me,
then you'll understand if you want me.
So question me.
then you'll learn what drives me.
Question my emotions,
then you'll learn how I'll react to you
and to everything else in the world.
Question my actions,
then you'll learn about what it takes
for me to act out my feelings and ideas.
Question my taste in friends,
then you'll learn about all the
different pieces that makes me...me.
Question my past,
then you'll learn about how
I want my future to be.
Question my goals,
then you'll learn about my dreams
and what I believe might bring me happiness.
Question me about books, music, movies, and sports,
then you'll learn what interests me.
Question my intelligence
and I'll question you regarding yours.
Question me if I'm interested
and I'll question you back
if you think you've questioned me enough.
To question me is to challenge me,
to provoke me, and to intrigue me.
No matter my reaction, be that of
laughter, tears, approval, or irritation,
to question me is to grab my attention
and maybe, I might start to question as well.
Question me to learn me,
then you'll understand if you want me.
So question me.
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i keep setting myself up for disaster
trying to make myself happy
just makes me realize
i dont really have much
to be happy about..
besides my friends
and thats beside the point
i still feel quite empty
life is unfulfilling
i know its up to me
to fill it myself
but i find my favorite words
are "i cant"
i dont smile like i mean it
i am so confused
i am really depressed
i am playing it out
exaggerating everything
living through my sorrows
i am so sick of putting up with shit.
it can simply be described as shitty
i really want to find genuine happiness.
i heard its great.
i really want to be
good at something
i want the things i love
and am passionate about
to be what i am talented at.
i really just want something
that modivates me
something to move me
and make life enjoyable
and worth living
because my heart asks me everyday
is today worth living?
do you really want to give
this piece of shit life another go round?
if you think you can make it better
give it a try but your just
letting yourself down.
you are alone...
trying to make myself happy
just makes me realize
i dont really have much
to be happy about..
besides my friends
and thats beside the point
i still feel quite empty
life is unfulfilling
i know its up to me
to fill it myself
but i find my favorite words
are "i cant"
i dont smile like i mean it
i am so confused
i am really depressed
i am playing it out
exaggerating everything
living through my sorrows
i am so sick of putting up with shit.
it can simply be described as shitty
i really want to find genuine happiness.
i heard its great.
i really want to be
good at something
i want the things i love
and am passionate about
to be what i am talented at.
i really just want something
that modivates me
something to move me
and make life enjoyable
and worth living
because my heart asks me everyday
is today worth living?
do you really want to give
this piece of shit life another go round?
if you think you can make it better
give it a try but your just
letting yourself down.
you are alone...
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Across the divided roadways of life
tormented and wandering souls
leave behind their imprints of pain,
potholes of disenchantment,
filled with the muddiness
of many repeated mistakes,
misconceptions and ignorance.
On a newly graded gravel road
wear and tear determines the path.
Seasoned drivers, attentive to signage,
try to avoid the turbid furrows
that lend dis-ease to the unwary soul.
but if we knew what’s around the bend
would we return the way we came…
and never travel that road again?
Yet who among us can say the lesson learned
was not worthy of the harrowing drive?
How many of us without hesitation
would alter the map life set before us?
For is it not true the unveiled soul
gains its knowledge and bits of wisdom,
when under the influence of pain and suffering?
Guess I’ll travel that road again…
maybe this time, a little wiser.
tormented and wandering souls
leave behind their imprints of pain,
potholes of disenchantment,
filled with the muddiness
of many repeated mistakes,
misconceptions and ignorance.
On a newly graded gravel road
wear and tear determines the path.
Seasoned drivers, attentive to signage,
try to avoid the turbid furrows
that lend dis-ease to the unwary soul.
but if we knew what’s around the bend
would we return the way we came…
and never travel that road again?
Yet who among us can say the lesson learned
was not worthy of the harrowing drive?
How many of us without hesitation
would alter the map life set before us?
For is it not true the unveiled soul
gains its knowledge and bits of wisdom,
when under the influence of pain and suffering?
Guess I’ll travel that road again…
maybe this time, a little wiser.
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So lately I have been thinking about whether or not I want to try and find a new gf. Usually my problem is a lack of time due to work, Anyways this is always a back-n-forth issue in my head. Depending on what time you catch me you may get a different answer when asking me if im interested in finding a new gf. It's been almost a year now since the last one. WOW just thinking about it....that was forever ago. The thing I miss most is that feeling of being with somebody who wants and cares for you. And something that I've noticed is that when I do have a gf I become a better person. I'm a lot happier, think a lot clearer, and so on. Probably the reason why this whole thing has been stiring up in my head again lately is because it seems every time i turn around another one of my friends finds a new lover. And I feel like a 3rd wheel. No I'm not paniced that I'm never gone have anyone again. No this isnt one of those sappy emo blogs complainging that my life sucks. Its nothing more than an expression of whats on my mind today. I don't think im gonna go out looking because I dont like meeting someone with the intent to date them, rather I like when i meet someone and it turns into something more. So hopefully someone will come by that strikes my interest.
So here is a list of what I'm looking for in a girl. Explore my mind a little, that sort of thing. Not actually LOOKING for a girl, but what I want my future wife/girlfriend/otherhalf to be like... I'm trying to keep this from being superficial, so it'll be all about personality.
*I want a girl who is willing to cook, clean, do household chores, etc. Not because 'it's a woman's job' but because I want to learn how to cook and want to be able to cook with my wife when I get older in a large kitchen I/we designed. Weird fantasy, I know, but hey. Cleaning goes fast when everyone pitches in, but it can be fun with a little music and just being together. And I don't want to have to clean up after someone all the time. I'll do it all, too, so it's nothing to do with stereotypes.
*I want a girl who can understand computers, video games, and such and enjoy them.
*I like to have someone to talk to about my ideas, dreams, what not and I hate telling people who aren't really interested because it makes me feel like they don't care and that everything I say bounces off of them. Also, if they care, but don't understand, I feel like I'm just telling someone who's helpless. I want someone will bounce ideas off of me, too, and come to me for help when they have an idea they're not sure how to execute.
*I want someone who's genuinely interested in what I have to say. "No shit!" obviously, but I like to know someone can offer me a little advice when I'm bugged.
*I want someone who will compromise or hear me out, instead of arguing. My parents argued too damn much and I know it can all be settled if you talk things out. I don't like arguing and I don't want someone who will argue with me over the stupidest things.
*I don't want someone who thinks there should be no secrets- there should be no MAJOR secrets (cheating, stealing, etc.) but some things can be kept to yourself. After all, we all deserve a little piece of ourselves. That said, I don't want a girl who's afraid to tell me things, because some secrets should be told- if it's upsetting or if you want to tell it, tell it! Don't hold it in. But if you don't want to share it, don't force yourself to.
*I like a girl who is shy, but I also like a girl who is outspoken. Two sides of the same coin, I know. But I can be downright shy around new people, but I loosen up after a while. I don't mind an outgoing girl, but shyness is cute! Either way or both ways, really.
*I like a girl with her own tastes. No followers! Be yourself! No sheep! Beastiality is BAD! We can share all the same tastes as long as she TRUELY likes them and isn't just trying to fit in or something. It's a relationship, not a clique.
*I like a girl who's smart, someone I can hold conversations with. I like a girl who likes to read, watch TV, movies, etc. that provoke a little thought. I have alot of deep intellectual thoughts in my head, and I need someone to share them with. I also like someone who has those thoughts as well, so they can give me something to think about.
*I like a girl who's not TOO smart. A little mindless action is fun! Being too uptight about intelligence is bad- no one is perfect. We all need to have imperfections because it's the imperfections that make girls beautiful, not flawless skin, sharp features, and perfect bodies.
*A girl with a varied style. This includes in literature, music, and clothing. I don't like to be too superficial, but I like a girl who wears baggie clothing every now and then. I like a girl who doesn't obsess over one band constantly, even if they have a favorite all time band. VARIETY IS THE SPICE OF LIFE.
* I want a girl who is not slutty... to me thats just unattractive and it makes her more likely to have caught something...eww
* I want a girl who is not bitchy. No one likes being around people that are overly moody and being arrogant kinda ties into that
* I want someone who is middle of the line when it comes to being a homebody vs being a 24/7 party-er
*No drama queens please!
*I dont have a problem with people who are highly into religion or politics. I dont have a problem with people who like tho share their views and opinions of religionand politics. I do have a problem with people that try to force their beliefs on you when it comes to religion or politics.
*Someone who isnt too routine and perdictable
*Jealousy...ahh jealously. This is a simple subject with me. I think its dumb. I understand that its human nature to be jealous, but I just dont get jealous. If I see that my gf is talking to another guy and isnt trying to hide it from me then I have no problem with that. I also dont have a problem with a girl who mostly has guy friends.
*Communication. Its the key to life. When something is wrong, tell me about it. Let me help you, even if its that you have a problem with me. Dont go telling 50 other people and not me, beciase then I get the twisted version of what you said. Im a pretty easy person to talk to.
*Cheaters need not inquire. From what I have seen in the past from people I know/know of...once a cheater always a cheater.
*And how could I forget...someone who is NOT clingly!!! I mean I love spending time with the one I'm with but occasionally I need a day with the guys or a night alone...im not even a big fan of daily phone calls, but I'll do it anyway IF youre already my gf.
Do i want too much?
Chris's Memories Cause Him Pain At 12:35 PM
So here is a list of what I'm looking for in a girl. Explore my mind a little, that sort of thing. Not actually LOOKING for a girl, but what I want my future wife/girlfriend/otherhalf to be like... I'm trying to keep this from being superficial, so it'll be all about personality.
*I want a girl who is willing to cook, clean, do household chores, etc. Not because 'it's a woman's job' but because I want to learn how to cook and want to be able to cook with my wife when I get older in a large kitchen I/we designed. Weird fantasy, I know, but hey. Cleaning goes fast when everyone pitches in, but it can be fun with a little music and just being together. And I don't want to have to clean up after someone all the time. I'll do it all, too, so it's nothing to do with stereotypes.
*I want a girl who can understand computers, video games, and such and enjoy them.
*I like to have someone to talk to about my ideas, dreams, what not and I hate telling people who aren't really interested because it makes me feel like they don't care and that everything I say bounces off of them. Also, if they care, but don't understand, I feel like I'm just telling someone who's helpless. I want someone will bounce ideas off of me, too, and come to me for help when they have an idea they're not sure how to execute.
*I want someone who's genuinely interested in what I have to say. "No shit!" obviously, but I like to know someone can offer me a little advice when I'm bugged.
*I want someone who will compromise or hear me out, instead of arguing. My parents argued too damn much and I know it can all be settled if you talk things out. I don't like arguing and I don't want someone who will argue with me over the stupidest things.
*I don't want someone who thinks there should be no secrets- there should be no MAJOR secrets (cheating, stealing, etc.) but some things can be kept to yourself. After all, we all deserve a little piece of ourselves. That said, I don't want a girl who's afraid to tell me things, because some secrets should be told- if it's upsetting or if you want to tell it, tell it! Don't hold it in. But if you don't want to share it, don't force yourself to.
*I like a girl who is shy, but I also like a girl who is outspoken. Two sides of the same coin, I know. But I can be downright shy around new people, but I loosen up after a while. I don't mind an outgoing girl, but shyness is cute! Either way or both ways, really.
*I like a girl with her own tastes. No followers! Be yourself! No sheep! Beastiality is BAD! We can share all the same tastes as long as she TRUELY likes them and isn't just trying to fit in or something. It's a relationship, not a clique.
*I like a girl who's smart, someone I can hold conversations with. I like a girl who likes to read, watch TV, movies, etc. that provoke a little thought. I have alot of deep intellectual thoughts in my head, and I need someone to share them with. I also like someone who has those thoughts as well, so they can give me something to think about.
*I like a girl who's not TOO smart. A little mindless action is fun! Being too uptight about intelligence is bad- no one is perfect. We all need to have imperfections because it's the imperfections that make girls beautiful, not flawless skin, sharp features, and perfect bodies.
*A girl with a varied style. This includes in literature, music, and clothing. I don't like to be too superficial, but I like a girl who wears baggie clothing every now and then. I like a girl who doesn't obsess over one band constantly, even if they have a favorite all time band. VARIETY IS THE SPICE OF LIFE.
* I want a girl who is not slutty... to me thats just unattractive and it makes her more likely to have caught something...eww
* I want a girl who is not bitchy. No one likes being around people that are overly moody and being arrogant kinda ties into that
* I want someone who is middle of the line when it comes to being a homebody vs being a 24/7 party-er
*No drama queens please!
*I dont have a problem with people who are highly into religion or politics. I dont have a problem with people who like tho share their views and opinions of religionand politics. I do have a problem with people that try to force their beliefs on you when it comes to religion or politics.
*Someone who isnt too routine and perdictable
*Jealousy...ahh jealously. This is a simple subject with me. I think its dumb. I understand that its human nature to be jealous, but I just dont get jealous. If I see that my gf is talking to another guy and isnt trying to hide it from me then I have no problem with that. I also dont have a problem with a girl who mostly has guy friends.
*Communication. Its the key to life. When something is wrong, tell me about it. Let me help you, even if its that you have a problem with me. Dont go telling 50 other people and not me, beciase then I get the twisted version of what you said. Im a pretty easy person to talk to.
*Cheaters need not inquire. From what I have seen in the past from people I know/know of...once a cheater always a cheater.
*And how could I forget...someone who is NOT clingly!!! I mean I love spending time with the one I'm with but occasionally I need a day with the guys or a night alone...im not even a big fan of daily phone calls, but I'll do it anyway IF youre already my gf.
Do i want too much?
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